Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Candles in the Darkness

You may have noticed that I fell mostly silent following Halloween. The darkness without and the darkness within sort of coincided this year, leaving me with little to write about, a lack of inspiration, a lack of motivation. Mundane circumstances started overwhelming me, once the busy October season was past; and while I know damned well that it's past time for me to witch up (hat tip to Evn for the phrase) and get on with it, well, sometimes it's task enough just to get up and put on actual clothing, let alone figure out how to go about restructuring your entire life midway through.

So I've spent the dark time between Halloween and the solstice in a sort of hibernation, accomplishing little, idling, as it were, waiting for the light to change. The things providing light at the moment are puny at best and hard to see by, but the fact that I'm even here posting this may be indicative of the necessary internal shift that will start the upward momentum. (Despite my apparent inability to even string together a cogent analogy...) I'm one who doesn't like to leap without looking, who likes to have a plan in hand before making a move. I am at least mildly hopeful that it's almost time to begin.